Solitary

Certain solitary ideas often consume me for weeks upon end: the idea that life is meaningless, the idea that love is selfish, the idea that everyone is fundamentally alone. The latter is bothersome because in believing it, the feeling of isolation quickly begins to eat away at you. Approaching the subject with anyone is pointless--already believing the idea that we're alone, isn't it futile to try to get someone else to understand where you're coming from? I believe I bring up the argument in the hopes that I can be proven wrong. But that hasn't happened. There's so much logic in being alone that it can't be proven wrong. And it depresses me endlessly to think that all I have at the end of the day is myself.

I could avoid driving myself (more) insane by abandoning the thought. I could try to convince myself that I'm wrong -- to believe we are not alone. But I don't want to do so, and why? Because to say we're not alone would feel like a lie.

Is it so selfish to wish to encounter loneliness in someone else, if only for the sake of empathy? Is there any merit to the idea of being alone together? I know someone can't be everything; I sincerely hope anyone can be something.

Edit: My therapist asked me if the unbreakable logic was "working" for me.