Silver lining.

Pushing people away was the easiest thing I ever did. Keeping close makes you realize how much it hurts to care.

Shallow. That's all how I wanted my relationships to be. I looked for nothing more than shallow company. Sleepless nights dulled the pain of days spent ignoring. I couldn't keep track of myself, let alone someone else. I immersed myself in a parallel reality and remained detached so that I could blame deprivation.

It was comfortable to be alone. But I was drowning within myself. I was swallowed by all the fears I refused to acknowledge.